I was just going in on tue. for my first 12 week OB check up and was told during my ultrasound that the baby had no heartbeat and from the measurements had stopped at eight weeks. I havent been able to get out of bed or talk to anyone. My husband called my family to tell them. Of course all their response is that "Everything happens for a reason". I understand that but thats not helping my pain, thats not helping that my breaking heart! I cant stop crying, i cant sleep and I cant get past the thought that just two days ago I thought I was going to have a baby and now nothing. All I think about is the thought of my babys last heartbeat, did it hurt? Im having a D & C tomorrow. I thought it would be easier than waiting for it to happen on its own. I dont know how to go back to my life, how to face all the people that knew, how Im going to look at babies. I havent left my room and dont know how Im going to live out in the world again.
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