Hi everyone...I'm new to this group, but not new to DS or miscarriage. I've been a part of the infertility group for a while now. We had taken a break from treatments while my husband was away, and just found out on Sunday that I was pg, on our own, with no treatments. I never thought that could happen. I have had 2 previous m/c, once when I was 19 and once November 2007. Those were the only 2 times that I was pg. I found out today, after my second beta, that my numbers are dropping (from 87 on tues, to 79 today). I am devastated, numb, etc. When I found out I was pg, I thought that since God let me get pg w/o treatments, then that must mean that this one is meant to stay....I really had a good feeling about this one, and now I hurt. My husband, who is helping his sister move, is being really insensitive. He is away from me today, the day that I need him most, and he won't even tell me when he is going to come home. I think he is mad at me, I think he is purposely avoiding me. When I called him and told him, he told me that if we ever get pg again, I'm not allowed to buy any books, look for names, look at any baby stuff, or tell anyone (the stuff NORMAL people do when they find out they are pg). How the hell does he expect me to do that? He seems to think that I wouldn't have a hard time if I didn't do all that stuff. But, I would feel just as bad if I didn't do it...I'm so upset, with life, with him, with everything. I guess its just as well he stays at his sisters...because I feel like hitting him now. How can he be SO awful about this? Sorry for ranting...but I know the only people that might get me would be you all. Thanks for taking the time to read this.
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