Hey ladies, this is the only place that I feel complete understanding for the struggles I am going through It has been a year and a half since my loss but it still hurts and the family support that had been so great has completely turned into get over it already and my sister has said some cruel things that I don't know how to ever forgive her. I have tried my hardest to keep people in my life but the lack of understanding is making angry and crazier than I already feel. She told me she has forgiven me a lot in the past couple years and that made me so mad because what is she forgiving me for? That I have been grieving the loss of my pregnancy experience, the dreams I had for that baby that will never come true, and the unique problem of dealing with loss and fear that I will never be a mother or have a successful pregnancy? That I can't control the jealousy I feel sometimes that she has a healthy baby coming and I don't? I don't like these feelings and hate myself for it but I don't think its fair to throw it in my face because I hate myself enough for the jealousy I feel she told me that not every pregnant woman was put here to make me miserable which I also found cruel to say and a lack of understanding in that comment. I have tried to support her through her pregnancy she has completely shut me out and made me feel like miscarriage is contagious or something.
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