I had another miscarriage a month ago. I lost twins this time. It was my 8 pregnancy. I have three wonderful children, but I am with someone new now and we have talked about having a baby. My suto mom was upset when she found out i was pregnant, but was very supportive of my feelings when I was losing them. I don't think she she wants me to try again though. I have a half brother that was very upset with me when he found out I was pregnant and said it was for the best when I lost them and that he was going to call and tell me to have an abbortion anyway. then he told me that he loves me, but that if are mom hadn't had me then she would still be alive for him and his brothers and sister. It wasn't my birth that killed her, but the DR.'s mistackes after I was delivered. I didn't know my half brothers until I was 21 and now 12 years later I don't think I can talk to this one anymore. i have always felt some guilt on my own for her death, but that hurt. He says he only told me his feelings because he feels I am hurting my 3 children that did make it by trying to have another one. I guess I should add my real mom was pregnany 11 times and only carried to term with 7 of us. Now I am scarred to get pregnant again, but I still want to have a baby with my love. Should I start taking BCP or not? I can't get fixed because that was how my Real mom actually died.
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