I have had 3 miscarriages and 3 failed adoption attempts at the very last minute= literally went to pick up the baby and the mother backed out last minute. Everywhere I go there are babies. I am a teacher. My husband doesn't seem to understand and we fight because he gets hurt, feeling like he alone is not enough for me. I go shopping and I see all these baby clothes and I want to cry. I feel as though I have been denied entry to an exclusive club through no fault of my own. My sister has 2 beautiful kids. My sister in law just had her 3rd. None of them ask how I am doing. A friend of mine actually took me shopping with her a few weeks ago for clothese for HER new baby. SOmetimes I want to scream and slap them all. Other times I just want to hide. I want a baby so, so badly. I find myself backing out of friendships, outings, events that once meant so much to me but I just can't stand it. What to do?
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