I had my daughter, Natalie, stillborn on October 17th. I know this pain is never going to completely go away. But I get into these stages almost predictably every other day where I am hysterically crying and feel so helpless. I have been getting bad dreams at night, and all I can think of is how she never looked at me, I never heard her voice , and what stages she would be at this point ( being 5 weeks old). I have a memory box that I do go through, looking at pictures of her and holding the clothes she wore, just to feel close to her. I have been trying to make this a positive and learning experience (as positive as you can in the situation) and rely on my faith but I don't know if I am pushing myself too much too fast. I just need some advice on better ways to try to deal with this tremendous pain.
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