OKay so yesterday was the hardest day ever....Well I will start by saying that the 1 year anniversary of our first angel was on December 2nd...I was okay on that day, I held my head high and I dealt with it really good, in my opinion. So On December 3rd, I felt myself starting to go..We had to go to the secretary of state for tabs and pregnant woman galore, I did fine, until there was one right next to me telling what seemed to me EVERYTHING possible about her pregnancy to her lady friend...I started to cry...I kept thinking about how I would have been an awful mother for not even shedding 1 tear on the day we lost our angel..That it was a good thing God took our angel..it was awful. Then about 9:00 last night, I was feeding and giving water to our pets..i went to give the rats some water and our baby was dead in front of the water bottle, I thought she was sleeping (was common for her) so i touched her and tried to wake her up, but she was hard and her heart wasnt beating...Our baby died the day after the 1 year anniversary of our Angel...My pets are the ones that helped me through both of my miscarriages, they are my Babies...truly, their my children, I love taking care of them and one of them died...Im sorry I had to vent Im just so heart broken right now.