I miscarried # 4 on Aug. 20,09. I have been trying very hard to work through all of my Emotions. But I got some news This past Tuesday my God Daughter, who means the world to me, She feels like she is mine, Anyways she had her first son Alex on Tuesday. My god Grandson :) She just called me to tell me all about what went on with her delivery. She told me that they made her push for 3 hours and she hadn't slept or ate anything for 2 days. She told her dr she wanted a C section and they gave her a hard time but they eventually gave her one. When they were giving her her c section she told me they got quiet and told her the baby was stuck in her pelvis from pushing so long! He had stopped breathing and they had to put her under. When she woke up the dr told her she had lost a lot of blood and they had to give her several blood transfusions. They told her, her baby was in the NICU because he wasn't breathing on his own. He is finally breathing on his own and is now doing remarkably better. But she told me he had stopped breathing 2 times after they took his breathing tubes out. They have done all kinds of tests on him and they say he is healthy. I have never been so scared in all my life! I was so afraid she was going to tell me he was gone! I just kept praying all week that all would be OK but I still had this feeling in my gut that it wasn't. It would just kill me if something happened to her or her baby. Especially now after losing our David. I am just so mixed full of emotions I just don't know how to process it all. I am so very happy she is OK and that her little Alex is OK. But I am just not sure why I am feeling this way. Please Keep them in your Prayers and me as well.
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