I lost my baby at 11 weeks. I had a missed miscarriage. I was/am completely devastated. I had a D&E but was treated so awful by the consultant and all the team. no compassion it was as if I wanted this to happen. No one seemed to realise I'd lost my baby- I was never going see him/her, hold the baby, wipe away its tears watch him/her grow up. My whole future had changed and no one cared! To make matters worse three weeks after the D&C I was still getting poss test. This was so distressing as i was still feeling the symptoms of pregnancy. I had to have another scan which showed some pregnancy tissue was left behind and I needed a further D&C. I was distraught with the though of going through another op with such uncaring staff again. I had the second D&C last week and Thankfully the staff and consultant were different and treated me with the compassion of which anyone deserve in this situation. The plecenta had been left behind and had started to grow without the baby. I'm still recovering physically now but emotionally I feel so low and wonder when this pain will subside. i keep reliving the awful experience of the first D&C and cannot seem to move on. I cry all the time. Has anyone ever experienced anything like this? I just feel I need help to try and put my life back together. I miss the baby I never had/met or cuddled.
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