some say be careful what you ask for. since i was 14 i have wanted to start my own family, but it was not as easy as i thought it would be. i couldnt get pregnant. when i was 18 i thought i met the man of my dreams. that was april 19 2005. we hit it off really good. we tried to have a family but i didnt get pregnant until that december. but my dreams were shattered. three weeks into my pregnancy istarted to feel alot of pain in my abdomen. the pain got so bad that it had me in tears. then i started to faint alot. i then went to the hospital and then found out i was three weeks pregnant. the quikly rushed me to the sugery room because i had internal bleeding from a ruptured tube. i lost my little baby. after that i distanced myself fom him and then our relationship started to sour. well we ended up separating for other things but were still having intercourse two years later. we were together off and on during this time. and of course i tried to work it out with him because of the love i had for him. then onthe second year anniversary of the loss i found out im pregnant again. so we get back togetherand eveything was going smooothly. six weeks int the pregnancy i had a miscarriage. we were still together. and everything was normal between him and i. two months later i tried to kill myself by over dose and then i cut myself. not only because of the loss of my second child but i was also losing my soulmate my partner and my lover. i went to the hospital over night to get help. but little did i know i was pregnant again. i went home and things got better between me and him then shortly after i found out that i was pregnant,but did not get a good reaction from him. he had decided that he did not want to settle down nor did he want a baby. he left me at three months and has moved to north carolina to be with another woman. im now five months pregnant with a healthy baby. im happy for that but in the process i lost someone very dear to me. the dream to have a family has been shattered once again. so i should have thought of the situation before hand. i have the baby i have always wanted but im now going to be a single mother with no job no house.but dont get me wrong iwould not give up this little angel for the world i love my baby very dearly......
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