I just had my second miscarriage this week. Almost this very moment one week ago a doctor told us our baby had no heartbeat. We thought we were "out of the woods" because we were 12 weeks and 1 day pregnant but the doc told us our baby died @ 11weeks. Now I have to return to work on Monday and sit in an office by myself for 3 hours with nothing but my thoughts to keep me company. I'm sure I won't be able to get through the first ten minutes without crying hysterically. No one I know has been through this once let alone twice like I have so I'm sure I'll get the comments like "It was meant to be" and "God has his reasons". I just don't think I can take it. I can't stand to be alone as it is now but at the same time I don't want to see anyone. The only company I can stand right now is my husband's and he's just as devastated as I am. I can't even watch TV because the only thing on during the day is baby shows, which I couldn't get enough of 2 weeks ago but now can't even bear to see the names of them on my guide. Does anyone else feel this way?
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