Hi ladies, I am here as I desperately NEED some advice........An overview is, Im a 44 yr old that had left a bad 9 yr relationship, and had gotten back into the dating world......I met someone, and we 'seemed" to get along for the most part,I mean we had some "issues" but ......long of the short, as adults we "progressed" to the level of sex, and as Adults we used a condom just the same, as I have 2 older children that are 24 and 20 and he has 3 kids from another lady he was with at some point...........ok, well the 1st part of september I started to bleed, a little and had gone to my dr, who immeadiately sent me to the hospital to have a D&C as for some reason, my body was not going to be able to have this child.........Even though this baby was a "surprise" to say the least, I still planned on loving it just as much as I did my children( adoption and or abortion were always out of the question).......So at 1st the guy I was with was supportive to a degree to the situation.........Ok, so as I am at the hospital getting ready for the D&C, I had sent him a couple of messages asking him to come to the hospital as I thought he should be there, being the father and all.........well NOPE he never came........so I went through the D&C alone........not one sole to be there for me.......my family ( my mother) had told me before the Miscarriage that I was nothing but a Disgrace and Embarrassment because I "got" pregnant at 44, so she refused to come to the hospital and still refuses to talk to me..........and after I got home from the hospital, I sent the "daddy" a text to ask him WHY IN HELL he was'nt at the hospital or even call to see how I was, and his answer was I got a "new" girlfriend and he does'nt give a shit about me or the "thing" that was in me, and we went to a football game with his sons!!!! I tried to text him about what we were going to do about the ENOROMOUS hospital bill, and he called the police on me and said I was harrassing him! I sent 2 text messages!!!! ........So my question is HOW IS HELL do you deal with the loss of your baby, and deal with the fact that my mother sees me as a Disgusting Disgrace cuz I got pregnant!!! How do you deal with the sheer pain of it all when you are NOT allowed to talk about it! The pain that I am carrying inside by myself is just terrible, and I need to find a way pass it...........I WOULD OF loved this baby just as much as my own........then to lose it.........have the "daddy" leave and your mother tell you your a disgrace is more then I can handle..........so if you guys could help me out...........I would really appreciate it
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