since my baby left me. After my extreme high yesterday (see yesterday's journal entry) I am feeling low. I am missing her so badly...I want to hold her...feel her growing inside of me....I wish I could feel each movement, all the kicks and jabs. I have felt so good lately and now all of a sudden the aching is so unbearable that I feel almost paralyzed, like I am about to be sick or something. I hate these feelings! All I want is for Angel to be here with me but I know it can't be that way. It doesn't stop me from wishing though. I want to cry but at the same time I feel so dry inside that the tears won't come. What is wrong with me?
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