Today I found out that I had a miscarriage. We were 11 weeks today. Everything was perfect until this past Monday. I started spotting a little bit so I called my husband and doctor right away. The next day we went and had an ultrasound. The baby was perfect. He was very active and he even waved to us. We got his picture and you could see his little nose and lips and hand. It was a really good profile picture. The next day, which was Wednesday, I started bleeding. It was in my underwear and the toilet. I called my husband and doctor right away again and the doctor told me to wait until Thursday afternoon and if the bleeding was still bright red and hasn't gotten lighter then I could come in on Friday, which is tomorrow, for an ultrasound. My friends covinced me to relax since we had a healthy baby less than 24 hours ago but when I got home that evening I started having really bad cramps that wouldn't go away. I did what the doctor said and laid in bed with my feet up but it wasn't heling. I went to the bathroom and it hadn't gotten any lighter. When I was getting ready for bed I stood up and I felt a gush of fluids fall into my underwear. I ran to the bathroom and yelled for my husband and there was blood everywhere! The floor, my clothes, the toilet, and on me. It just came out like I went pee in my pants. I called the on-call doctor right away and she said that it was common and I probably had a clot that the ultrasound missed. I wanted to believe her but it didn't feel right. I knew that something was wrong inside. It hurt too bad. We went to the doctor without an appointment and saw a new doctor right away. She did an ultrasound and our baby was gone. It was like we were never even pregnant. I still have bad cramps and I'm not sure what to do.
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