Miscarriage Support Group
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Well first of all let me say Happy Thanksgiving to everyone. Tomorrow (Thanksgiving) would have been the day we welcomed Nicholas into our lives. I tell ya it has been a very rough couple of weeks, and yesterday it started getting even harder. I was talking to my mom and she said that she had heard that one of her friends was not at the meeting she was at because her daughter was giving birth. My Mom totally lost it, because she started to think about Nicholas and about how he was due to enter our lives anyday basically. That sent me into a MAJOR meltdown, but I had allready been crying before that. My hubby has been REALLY missing Nicholas. He will start to cry and say "I want my son." I tell him I know and I want him back as well.
The emotions are all coming back. The pain has never left us, and all we want is our son. I have been dreading tomorrow since we lost Nicholas. I have no idea how I am gonna get past the day, but we will see. We are going to the cemetary tomorrow for sure and then to my Mom's house I believe.
I just know I am gonna try to honor my Nicholas in any way I can think of tomorrow and thats for sure.
Nicholas,
Tomorrow you would have entered our lives. You would have changed our world even more. Not to say that you haven't allready. Your Daddy was so looking forward to you coming and being his boy. I was looking forward to just being your Mom. Which I am anyways, but to have every aspect of being your Mom.
You are the baby we had been waiting for since we said "I Do". You are our miracle baby. You will NEVER be forgotten. We will NEVER stop loving you. You are our child.
Tomorrow I put on the necklace I had made in memory of you. I am so looking forward to it. I will always have your name with me. Not only in my heart, but in the necklace.
I know that you are in a much better place. Playing with all the other babies in heaven. I know you are playing with your older brother or sister as well.
Nicholas I never thought that missing someone would be so hard. I never thought that loving someone could be so hard. I never thought that this would be so hard. I love you so much and want you back so darn bad. I just wish that things could be different. I love you baby boy. YOU will ALWAYS be my little man, and I love you so much.
Love Mommy
The emotions are all coming back. The pain has never left us, and all we want is our son. I have been dreading tomorrow since we lost Nicholas. I have no idea how I am gonna get past the day, but we will see. We are going to the cemetary tomorrow for sure and then to my Mom's house I believe.
I just know I am gonna try to honor my Nicholas in any way I can think of tomorrow and thats for sure.
Nicholas,
Tomorrow you would have entered our lives. You would have changed our world even more. Not to say that you haven't allready. Your Daddy was so looking forward to you coming and being his boy. I was looking forward to just being your Mom. Which I am anyways, but to have every aspect of being your Mom.
You are the baby we had been waiting for since we said "I Do". You are our miracle baby. You will NEVER be forgotten. We will NEVER stop loving you. You are our child.
Tomorrow I put on the necklace I had made in memory of you. I am so looking forward to it. I will always have your name with me. Not only in my heart, but in the necklace.
I know that you are in a much better place. Playing with all the other babies in heaven. I know you are playing with your older brother or sister as well.
Nicholas I never thought that missing someone would be so hard. I never thought that loving someone could be so hard. I never thought that this would be so hard. I love you so much and want you back so darn bad. I just wish that things could be different. I love you baby boy. YOU will ALWAYS be my little man, and I love you so much.
Love Mommy
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I have been here before, a long long time ago and now I am back.Forgive me for not just saying what I want to say,even under a triple dose of antidepressants it is still raw and seeping and I am hesitant at revealing it as at least under the bandages around my heart I don,t have to look at how raw and wounded.My child was cleaved from my heart by his own actions. my child of ten,turning eleven...
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
BIG HUGS!!!!