Hi all. I'm 22 and had just found out I was pregnant on New Year's Day for the first time. It wasnt planned and was a huge surprise but we both were very excited nonetheless. I miscarried at 6 weeks. At first, I was not upset at all. I did think it was weird but I just kept telling myself, and everyone else, that it happened for a reason and I can always try again, blah, blah, blah. I think I was just trying to supress it or I was just emotionally numb. Now, it's starting to really hit me. It's been a week and I have so many emotions rolling in. I'm just a mess inside but I don't show it outside, first of all because no one at work knew and I didn't want them to know until I was further along. They sure as hell aren't knowing about this..so I keep it together and normal while at work. I just feel like miscarriage is so underrated to people who have never had one. I know I underrated it. So I feel stupid and judged because I'm becoming really depressed about this. I mean I know alot of people think that since I was so early that I shouldn't be that upset. I thought that at first...but now I'm just a whole mess of confused. I just don't even know how to deal with this. No one in my family has ever had a miscarriage. I don't even know anyone period who's had one. I really don't even know if I'm asking anything..ha I feel like a nutcase. I just need comfort I guess.
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