On Tuesday, my partner and I had ultrasounds to view our eight week embryos. My ultrasound revealed a tiny piece of something that the doctor said had been a developing embryo that stopped developing. It did not have a heartbeat. The doctor said it was too small to be an eight week embryo. My partner's revealed nothing - just an empty gestational sac. I know I saw it with my own eyes and I know that the doctor said it was certain that neither baby had survived. I have accepted that on one level with my grief, but on another level, I am in denial. I do not want to take any medication to expel the babies because I can't help thinking that just maybe the doctor was wrong. I know that I have no factual basis for this, I just can't let go of my hope and denial. Has anyone ever heard of the doctor being wrong after an ultrasound like this? Am I just feeling this way because my body cannot tolerate grief without the relief that a little bit of hope brings? How can I be sure, one way or the other?
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