I have just experianced my first mc and dont know how to deal with all the emotions going through my body. At times I feel disconected and numb or I dont even accknowledge the loss. Then other times the pain is so close to the top that I go off on everyone. I dont want to push my husband away but thats what I feel like I am doing. I know he hurts too, he wanted this baby just as much as I did. But I feel like my body turned against me. I feel like I am screeming inside, but Im too afraid to let it out. If I do and I lose control, I dont know if I will ever get it back. I have three beautiful boys already, and I keep thinking I should be greatful for them and I am, but I also feel like I have lost part of my soul. That part of me is gone and will never come back. Help!!! please.
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