okay guys here's what happened...a few days after I had my M/c I had to go back to work because of lack of staffing and stuff and so I never really got to grieve and so i finally fell apart on monday (xmas eve) and went called in for the rest of the week and I went into to get my paycheck because I had a bill i'd overlooked and had to pay before it went to collections and then people called my co teacher and told her they thought I was lying...what the hell? It hurt so much. Like I didn't know I was supposed to grieve while at work when my job doesn't even like you to show any emotion other than happiness in front of people. And it took a while to hit. Never mind the fact that I'd been so depressed that i haven't slept more than a few hours every 2 or 3 days, that i'm not eating and everyone at work says I look like crap from not sleeping or eating. Sorry I took a few days off to finally grieve because if I don't, my psych says i'm going to have a total break down soon if i don't take time for me.I just can't believe someone would be so cruel. Never mind the fact that i've been an emotional mess all week.Did anyone else only feel bad cramping after a D&C? My doc said I could return to work when it wasn't too painful which wasn't that long...then he gave me vicodin...did anyone else get painkillers? I'm lost. Why did someone at work say that? am I alone in the D&C thing? What should I do?
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