I myself still have a hard time going in public.. walmart, grocery store, last night at my daughters school, I start breathing hard, I get upset, I cant focus, I feel like I am in a dream , so your not alone !I am sure there are others here that feel the same too!

I felt that way every time I went into a store for the first few weeks, but I haven't had that feeling in a while. Most of the time being at church is the hardest for me! I still run out crying occasionally.

I too have felt this way lately.. I have been journaling about it.. on here.... I took a sick day today to just have some down time. I got to bring my kids to school today..usually hubby does it.. and I was in my 4year olds school room and I felt anxious- he was showing me all the neat things they do and I felt uneasy being there.. I know what you are feeling.. I hope for all of us time will bring our confidence back..

After my son was stillborn I just wanted to throw myself back into work, I am a hair stylist. Well I was not thinking and when I went back all my clients just though I was out having a healthy baby so for 6 or 8 weeks I would deal daily with someone going well lets see that new baby or something similar to it, it was terrible. I eventually had to put up signs in the waiting area and on the door telling a little about what happened so people would leave me alone. I of course got the dumb asses that said "it was for a reason" and even one lady said "you know the devil took your son and God knew nothing about it, he doesn't take babies" I just about slapped he across the salon. I had another friend who lost 2 out of 3 babies (triplets) and someone asked her "what have you done so bad in you life that God did this to you?!" the nerve of some people. Anyway I hope you can relax soon.

I experienced it the worst, when I went back to work, and the week that Grace was due. I didn't want to talk to anyone, and I screen my phone calls. I still go through periods like that, but it's easier now. I have a feeling Christmas will be rougher this year, since I feel like I should have a 4 month old. Hugs!

I have a hard time in social situations - whether the folks I am with know or not. I my angel was b/d at 37.5 weeks. I feel like I am living a lie as I sit there and make idle chitchat with people. I just want to scream - YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I AM GOING THRU - YOU HAVE NO IDEA ABOUT MY PAIN - but instead, I sit and smile and make more idle chit chat. I found myself at a jewelry party and had a few two many glasses of wine to try and mask my emotions - all these strangers asking me how I am, how am I enjoying my new house, why did I move, etc. And I just lie - I am fine, I love my new house, we moved because we wanted a bigger house, etc. In reality - we moved for the baby that we didn't get to bring home - how am I? I am not fine - I am coping - etc. I just feel like I am living a lie....

I get this times where I tend to panic. If I need to get ready to go out but have to do laundry, then make lunch, then get myself ready to go, I tend to get overwhelmed, my heart races I get short of breath, then I start crying. And on top of that I usually start thinking of my daughter and that takes over and then it makes it even harder to pull myself together. I never had been overwhelmed by such small things, like laundry and lunch, until everything with my daughter happened. But I would suppose it's normal, maybe its just a part of all of the emotional and physical shock. Just know that you are not the only one.

I don't know when you had your stillbirth, but yes, it's VERY hard in the beginning to be out in public. I remember wanting to yell at everyone "DO YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENED TO ME?!?!"

I was unable to go back to my favorite breakfast place because I knew they'd say "So, did you have your baby?!" and I'd have to tell them and maybe cry and it would be very awkward. So, I never went back.

I remember feeling invisible in public too. And going back to my OB/GYN for my check-up was a NIGHTMARE! I pretty much had a panic attack (seeing all the pregnant woman) and had to leave.

It does get better, though.