About 2 months ago I had an induced miscarriage. I found out immediately at 4 weeks that I was pregnant due to the fact that I had been on the pill and my period was 3 days late. Even though I was scared and unsure if I could handle it, I still wanted my baby more than anything. 5 weeks later the doctor couldn't find the heart beat and said it looked like a 6 week pregnancy even though I was at 9 weeks. This has been the most devistating experience in my life (and I have been through a lot). It's 2 months later. Im still angry/hurt and the tears wont stop even though sometimes I think Im ok. I feel bad sometimes because I take things out on my boyfriend of 10 years. He's just not ready for a family and I can't take it much longer. I know what I want and it just seemed that baby was my only hope and now it's gone. He keeps saying dont worry we will have them someday... to me someday with him is never at this point. I just feel so depressed and lonely. No one seems to understand. I just want to crawl in a hole and dissappear for a little while.
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