I feel really mad at myself,you know. My husband and I use condoms because we have gotten pregnant a couple of times before while on birth control. One day we didn't and I realized it was exactly 14 days after the start of my period. I rushed down to planned parenthood and got "the day after pill" (Plan B is the name). But 2 weeks later I took a test and sure enough it didn't work. I was upset I had just started school and was feeling already overwhelmed with my three younge children. This baby was unplanned, and at first I was upset. Now that I have lost my baby 7 weeks later my heart aches and I feel so guilty. Was it my initial negative thoughts or my attemp to prevent the pregnancy that caused this. (I know it's not but I can't help but think) I just don't understand I tried so hard to prevent it and then when I accept it and fall in love with the image and idea of the baby it is taken away. It feels like punishment and I am just sooo mad, but I don't know who to be mad at.
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