All I wanted for Christmas was to not have to face the one-year anniversary of my m/c without a child on the way. I guess that is pretty selfish, but I just thought that would help ease the pain that I know I am going to be feeling. Losing the baby was so devastating, and I told myself that I didn't want to remember Christmas as the time I lost my baby, but as the time to celebrate the new life coming. That was all I wanted....but I should have learned by now that you don't get what you want regardless of how much you NEED it. I know that things will get tougher the closer Dec 26 gets here, but now that I know I am not pregnant, I know I have to face what would have been our first christmas together....alone. Just needed to get it off my chest. Guess this Christmas will just be a time of remembrance and not one of hope....
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