I had my first miscarriage during Dec/Jan of 09 and then another one this past Jan/Feb. I was about 6 weeks with both of them and just found out I was pregnant as I started to miscarry with both of them. My husband and I were actively ttc for both of those. A few people said, "Well, at least it was earlier rather than later and you didn't really have a chance to get used to the idea". I knew what they meant, but to me it wouldn't have mattered if it was 6wks or 3 months or 6months. It was still heartbreaking and devastating. I haven't been able to get pregnant since. And I can't stop thinking about what would be my two beautiful children now. One would be almost a year old and I would be due soon with the second. I want to cry everytime I see a pregnant woman or a small baby. I catch myself judging women who can easily get pregnant with 1,2,3,4 kids and most of the time it is by accident. I know that I should be happy for women who have that wonderful gift. I even get angry with the people I love. I cry almost everyday because I am so sad and I feel like no one understands; not even my husband. Will this ever get easier? My husband and I want to keep trying, but I am so scared of miscarrying again. Thanks for listening.
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