Well, I am going to wing it because I am on the other side of the fence on this one. Typically I am the "go to" spouse when there are questions and problems. The problem with this is that right now I have the problem and I feel like I am not helping others as I should be. As I said, I have been with my husband for 13 1/2 years. WOW typing that is crazy, you see we got married when he was a pvt and I was 16 and pregnant. For those of you that are young, never let anyone say it can't be done. Since then we have had 3 children, 2 overseas tours, 5 duty stations, right now a tour in Iraq, and far too many obstacles we have overcome. I feel emotionally drained right now. I put on a happy face and let everyone know I am wonderful and then I come home and listen to saved voicemails and cry myself to sleep at night. I love being the spouse that "has it together" but really I am falling apart. I have started a journal and it is helping a little but I thought this may be better. I hate the words "I understand" from friends that really have no clue, and for that matter my family also. Right now I am mad, and I feel horrible that I am. This is the only time that I can remember that I am mad at the Army. He has been gone since August and is set to redeploy in November. I have tried everything I can think of to get me out of this funk. Any suggestions?
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