Meth Addiction & Recovery Support Group
Methamphetamine is a synthetic stimulant drug used for both medicinal and recreational purposes. Methamphetamine is highly psychologically addictive. Like most stimulants, large doses of methamphetamine can result in a strong feeling of euphoria at the expense of physical fatigue and a strong "come-down" as the drug's effect wears off.
Well im facing my biggest fear this week.
Meth is comming back in my life and i am hating it. i hate this stuggle and when me and kyle are talking i could never talk to him about it because he would be discusted with me. I cant talk to my best friend because the only drug she has ever tried is weed and only a few times and she dont like it.
I was talking to this girl i used to tweak with sometimes.. shes into slamming it now. she was telling me your like a noodle for the whole day. and its more of a high than smoking shit.
I dont want to start up again but its like every where i turn and i hate making excuses for myself but i dont want to slip but all this stress of possibly loosing kyle.. i think if i do im going to start up again, and i know i will end up slamming it. i stopped talking to that girl because the feelings in me she mixed up sceared me so bad. Kyle would be so discusted with me for even thinking about it but i cant help it. It was such a part of my daily life when he was locked up that it is so hard for me to just drop it like i did.
He teases and calls me a tweaker all the time and i act like it dont bother me but im trying so hard not to and every one just keeps pushing it right in my face...how do i escape this grip.
when i cant even have the courage to talk it out in person with the man i want to spend the rest of my life with?
... confused.
Meth is comming back in my life and i am hating it. i hate this stuggle and when me and kyle are talking i could never talk to him about it because he would be discusted with me. I cant talk to my best friend because the only drug she has ever tried is weed and only a few times and she dont like it.
I was talking to this girl i used to tweak with sometimes.. shes into slamming it now. she was telling me your like a noodle for the whole day. and its more of a high than smoking shit.
I dont want to start up again but its like every where i turn and i hate making excuses for myself but i dont want to slip but all this stress of possibly loosing kyle.. i think if i do im going to start up again, and i know i will end up slamming it. i stopped talking to that girl because the feelings in me she mixed up sceared me so bad. Kyle would be so discusted with me for even thinking about it but i cant help it. It was such a part of my daily life when he was locked up that it is so hard for me to just drop it like i did.
He teases and calls me a tweaker all the time and i act like it dont bother me but im trying so hard not to and every one just keeps pushing it right in my face...how do i escape this grip.
when i cant even have the courage to talk it out in person with the man i want to spend the rest of my life with?
... confused.
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
xoxo Nick
xoxo Nick