I have been in and outta the rooms since June 2007, why in the heck can't i just stop??!! I picked up "again" last Tuesday and have not stopped. My problem....I tend to minumize my useing, i can do 3 or 4 hits off the bowel and leave it alone for the rest of the day. Untill it gets outta hand then i find myself useing throughout the day instead of once a day, and im almost there but fighting so hard to not be. I hate this _ _it!! Why in the world did i ever start, am i ever going to make it, i have way to much to loose, and i cant even be honest with my sponsor because i am so imbarassed of my continuous relapsing!!!
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