I have been a mth user for the past 8 years. On and off not regular, but I will go 6-8 months on and 2-6 months off, I have quit and relapsed so many times. I am afraid of becoming a statistic. I have pushed away most of the people in my life I was closest to. I have read all the dangers and side effects, but as most addicts do, I say " that wont happen to me" I know that I am not invincible and i also know that noone ever thinks it could happen to them. I have enough of my mental abilities to know I HAVE to stop using. But I do not know how. I live in a teeny tiny town where I would have to say at least 85% of the population is on it including " upstanding" citizens such as law enforcement officials, teachers, preachers, ect. Most of my friends are on it, and I have no way to move away to get away from it. I hate this drug and I hate what I have become because of my use of it. Yet when it is offered, I am weak and cannot say no. I need to reclaim my life and who I am. I have been to 1 NA meeting but all it did was make me leave craving more. Today makes 2 days I have been off of it and I know the worst of the cravings and withdrawls are yet to come. Does anyone have any advice on what I can do to help myself stay on the road to recovery and not relapse again? What has worked for you?
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