Hello all, I've been clean going on a little over 3 weeks now. The first week is the hardest. But I realized what I've been missing out of life. One of them is your dreams. No matter how bad or good your dreams are. Meth steals them away from you. Because either you can't sleep, or you are so exhausted that you just pass out with minimal brain activity. Another thing it takes away from you is a social life. It makes you so paranoid that you seclude yourself from others. Esp. those that love you the most. I come from a very large family. We're talking 9 brothers and 9 sisters. And over 40 neices and nephews. I am the only one that is not married. Main reason is because at the time Meth was cosidered the better partner. I also thought that I was looked at by others as "uncle fuck-up". But that was all just paranoid B.S. that I made up in my mind. My family loves me. They may not agree with me at times, but they love me. So, do yourself a favor. Take a break from the addiction. Remember, the 1st week is the hardest. But, just start by getting your dreams back. Everything else will follow. And then you will remember how to love yourself and others.. Good luck. Love you all... Jet
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