I tried crystal meth for the first time in May of last year. My husband and I were separated, sharing custody of our two girls so my kids weren't always with me anymore. The reasons why I chose to try the drug were purely stupid and irresponsible. I watched my own mother loose everything to this horrible drug. I watched her life fall apart because this drug meant more to her than her family. So when I was going through my separation with my husband and I was constantly depressed and felt so alone I began to wonder what was so great about this drug that my mom would just basically walk away from her family. While my children were visiting with their father I would go visit my mom even though I know was still using and I did this because I didn't want to be alone while my kids were gone. Shortly after I became involved with the same people my mom was involved with and I was instantly hooked. I loved the drug from the start. I loved the taste, the smell, the feeling. I was completely consumed, eaten alive you could say. Slowly during this time I began to alienate myself from anyone who was not using. Every moment I was awake I was chasing my next fix. Things got out of control with my mom and I (we both started using together). Things spun so far out of control that I got pregnant and didn't really realize it until I was about 4 months along and I started getting really sick. The pregnancy was my turn around point in my life. That is when I realized the mess I really was. I quit using in October 2008, stopped talking to all the people who used as well (including my own mom), worked things out with my husband, and now I keep myself busy these days with family and hobbies. My mom also got clean eventually and now we talk again, but I still have a hard time because of how crazy things got between us and I am afraid if she goes back to it I will never get her back. I almost lost my children and everything to this pure evil. Anyone who is reading this and is using or is thinking about trying this drug, DON'T!!!!! It will ruin your life!!!!
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