My husband is a recovery meth addict (119 days clean) and I am so angry at him. I blame him for what he has done to us financially as well as emotionally. I can not get over my anger at him. I am proud of his recovery but I look at the turmoil it has put on us and I just get pissed. Sometimes I get so mad I can not stand to look at him. I hate who I have become in all of this and I hate who he was and even who he is now. He did go to a 6n week rehab program that helped him a lot. He does not attend any other meetings says he doesn't need to and I can't make him. I attended al anon and it just didn't do anything for me- I just kept hearing the poor addict how do we help them- what about me... Is that selfish???? I also don't know if he even sees or cares about what this has done to me and our relationship. He doesn't really talk to me much about it and has never made amends to anyone for what he has done and that really angers me. My parent's and I are really the only ones that have supported him through this and I don't feel he appreciates that at all- is that selfish of me too. His family has been no help or support and that is another sores of anger. I will stop rambling now- I just thought maybe another recovery or addict could maybe help me understand or something I don't know. I would love to be able to move on from this and have a happy family life I just don't know how- I feel like I am just lost in his recovery/addiction....
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