I am 17 i started about a year ago and due to me being a user a lot of people i spend time with are much older and been using many years longer so yeah 1 year sounds not long. the first time i did it was with my dad see hes 37 and been on and off user since about 17 or 18 i know with the life of using many spend time in jail or prison he was gone almost all my life in and out of prison well, i guess to make this long story shorter hes now clean (which that goes into a long story due to he went back to jail hes out now and clean) i still use, that he doesn't know of well at least that i know of when i started i got my best friend jak to do it too to this day we still both using often always together and getting high or doing the waiting game or looking for money i pawned about everything in my room i think about finding a job but for all the wrong reasons wanting the job for cash to get high but i get high everyday i think about getting around to looking i dropped out of high school because id smoke right before i walked through the school doors and i would be out on the streets till 4 am every morning before school never slept ate go on like this for days or however long i could push my body to go without often id force myself to try to eat about 5th or 6th day so id go into class high and think everyone knew i was high and doing drugs as fuck so would just leave this went on for days till i just dropped out now i'm starting to shoot up whenever i get the chance i have shared needles with few people and really i'm fully convinced i have this under control and there's no problem no addiction nothing wrong but 1 thing that gets me is when my friend jak brings up stopping for a while taking a break i almost get mad i say "why that's stupid you don't need a break your fine but whatever if you want then go ahead i don't care i'm not taking one i don't need to" the thought of even a week break pisses me off so i don't know just if anyone's got input or a comment on all this i'd like that
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