i've been sober for 2 years and in some ways i'm happier than i've ever been. however, i just don't feel the same. i don't deal with situations like i used to. i have this underlying anger and i'm easily irritated. i get impatient often (and i'm usually a very patient person). i get bored with things quickly and its hard to entertain myself. i've accomplished quite a bit in the last two years... i mean, for the first time in like 10 years, i have a drivers liscense, a bank account, a job, a car, a boyfriend who loves me, and many more things to proud of and thankful for. but i worry that i've done a lot of damage to my mind, body and spirit. i feel like an infant, in a sense. learning all over again how to live and deal with things without tweeking to escape. maybe thats it...maybe i tweeked for so long that i just forgot how to be me (?). i have insecurities i never had before because my security blanket is gone. i feel so different from everyone around me because i've been through so much and i can't even share it with people because i know they wouldn't understand. if anyone has similar feelings please reply. maybe i just need confirmation that i'm not the only one that experiences these things.
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