thats great to hear. i know a month can feel like forever to an addict and im proud of you. i had 2 months back in august on the 2nd but on my 60th day i relapsed and it's getting worse. tuesday i shot up for the first time which i always promised myself i wouldn't because my dad and mom were heroin addicts. they're recovered now and have almost 30 years clean. it seems like such a long time ago that i was clean only 2 months ago but i still remember the feeling. ah it was wonderful and it only got better. i felt like a kid again. everything intrigued me and everything was so exciting and fun. i was stupid enough to think that i could use once in a while and now my soul is lost to it again. please go to your meetings and keep your sobriety #1! i know i didnt and then i started missing meetings and not talking to my sponsor and i thought that i was healed and i could control my life again, and i started believing the things an addict was saying and i relapsed. well not trying to descourage you but i want you to know what to look out for if your really trying to stay clean. GOODLUCK and dont go back cuz its really hard to get back once you go back out. ONE DAY AT A TIME. if you need to talk im here.

Monday the 22nd 1 month thats great and i know you will succeed because ive studied your writings and it looks good your heart is on track and you made the most important move you can make.ill see you monday please remember i dont hate the person i hate the drug.deral

I am so glad for you!! I cant express that enough! Life without being high is so great Isnt it! Remember if you ever need me I am here ! Congrats!

Dear fallen please forgive my childless actions hey its almost a month for me also methadone and xanax this go around it almost killed my ole 45 yr old body but ive crested the top and know i roll to the bottom oh how sweet it is to be able to cling to whats most important.please forgive me for being on the attack i must be honest i am still detoxing after 3 yrs use and i acted out from frustration w/ myself its called reflecting when i see myself in a person it stirs the anger in me and i act out please forgive me im hurt and i want your hurt because i deserve it and that the honest truth.and you and friends taught an old dog new tricks so im here for you and if it please anyone to chew me out i will take my shortcomings and work thru them ill say goodnight but not goodbye cuz i hope to talk to you later .....DERAL

Wow! haha what a small world it is, huh? Monday was also my 1 month sober date! Congradulations!

Thank you all so much I honestly dont think I could have done it alone.

Deral I forgive you. I am sorry I went on the attack as well but I tend to be very protective of my friends, especially Max who has been my rock during my becoming sober. if it werent for him I am sure I would have relapsed a couple times now. No hard feelings mate!

Dear fellen thank you and you have a wonderfull nights rest i will write early in the morning because this analog aol is so undependable ive written you 2 letters already at got ripped off so ill see you in the morning congrad.you made it 1 month thats a very good effort and i commend you you got heart goodbye and goodnight sweet dreams ...deral

Dear fallen well as luck would have it my pc went on strike so ive had to go to the office at a very weird time of the day to address the many replys and ive just gotten started and in pooped because i worked all morning lonf at home getting ready for winter you know the basics moveing plant in stacking wood mowing and cleaning house things i didnt do while i was sick but my strength is coming back and i feel great im almost tempted to pick up those weights again and see how far i can go hopfully shape up fore my healths sake .lets forget about me and focus on that 1 month sobriety isnt it great to know that the going to trips always seem long but the coming back trips always seem shorter .you hang tuff and stand that ground youll make it i know see you later i must rest now im exhausted and that means i can sleep good bye now and congrads....DERAL

Dear khrazyie hats off to you the effort is to be honored by us all in past addiction so if i must speak for us in recovery then shouts if congrulations and hugs and kisses celebrate your victory month with grat joy you are on your way to this is your day be happy be strong and feel the goodness released shakle.goodnight dear sweet dreams....deral