The fact that your hear means you are on th right path. You know you need help. Just follow the yellow brick road hun. Every time there's a fork in it you will know which road to take. Your child will tell you xx

BUT THE GOOD NES IS ..YOU KNOW YOUR NOT...........THE ICE QUEEN.......... YOU HAVE SELF WORTH.. NO ONE CAN TAKE THAT FROM YOU.. FIND A PAIN CLINIC AND EXPLAIN THIS SITUATION.. THEY WILL HELP.. MUCH LOVE D

Thanks folks. I am trying to hold my head up, explain the situation and ask for help, but I live in a small town and the medical community here is tough. I will see my dr. this morning and talk to him. I am nervous, I feel like I have no right to ask for help now, as so many have made me feel ashamed, but I will keep pushing ahead anyway, it is all I can do.

Hi sclady my name is Deral first off your previous dr. has no right exposing your medical history to anyone unless youve signed a waiver or there is a supeona in place.Furthermore defemation of character is against the law if it damages your ability to work or get medical attention.Im like Diane your not the ice queen you are much more worthy to be anything you want besides that label.Your right the meth can ravage our bodies to the point that we feel worthless and disabled but my sister your not worthless or disabled your just a little out of alignment and can be fixed but we must address the issues at hand.The schedule 1234&5 narcotics are most of the time are a lot harder to kick than the meth it self,how do i know well i sent you a very long letter last night explaining my past experiance w/opiates but obviously you didn't get it but thats ok Im not gonna say take my word for it cuz I never do that on my entries to anyone I only call it like I see it and mostly from my own personel experiances ive kicked every drug known to man from baby aspirin to turpinetine.Your anxiety is probably coming from the pain and the worry about finding a dr. that will help you thru the operations and thereafter pain I use to drive 50 miles 1 way to get my cronic pain meds and then 50 miles back to get the script filled but thats really not the issue.I think the meth has done its damage for sure because it dose make our bones brittle and wears on cartlidge that is a natural protecter between our joints and if you have this degenerative disc disease then you need to see an orthopedic Dr.that will diagnose you correctly and do whats best for you but I believe you will have to indure the preposed operations by the Dr.and then if your pain continues then a cronic pain clinic will be your only alternative unless you know (a) the GreatPhysician.You are dealing w/ what is refered to as Polysubstance use another word we are taking various drugs that need various solutions to overcome and that really plays on ones mind so please hang in there and get your physical health back in a controllable motion then work on expeling the drugs one by one and Ill guarantee you'll feel a differance .These comments and words are not intended to offend or hurt anyone on any issue that was presented in the primary post they were only possible solutions to a noticable problem.please write back if there is anything I can do as a member of Daily Strength...luv DERAL

i feel your pain.

i've ruined my reputation as well even though i stopped in july.

hold your head up high and dont care what other people think. thats what i've done.

keep smiling and remember, you've done really now so far.

good luck

Once an addict always an addict. If you have any questions about how to stay clean and making it through another day, just ask.

People don't look at me anymore as an addict, except in my meetings that is.