
Meth Addiction & Recovery Support Group
Methamphetamine is a synthetic stimulant drug used for both medicinal and recreational purposes. Methamphetamine is highly psychologically addictive. Like most stimulants, large doses of methamphetamine can result in a strong feeling of euphoria at the expense of physical fatigue and a strong "come-down" as the drug's effect wears off.

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I have been clean for 1.5 years. But in the time that I was using I did some seriously shitty things to myself and to my family. I treated people that loved me like shit, lied, traveled on air planes with drugs. i had been up for four days at my high school graduation, and there was my family smiling and not knowing (I don't know how they could not tell, I looked like a yellow zombie). i also slept with people and wouldn't have if I were sober. The list goes on, I cannot tell all for shame.
Now here I am thinking, "Was that me?" I cannot reconcile my present self with my former self, I've been battling this for while. I still have my mom say things like, "Remember the time you did..(fill in the blank with some shitty immoral thing)". Was I really not myself for those years? I still feel guilty for the people I hurt and hurting myself. I feel like Dr. Jecklyl and Mr. Hyde.
Does anyone deal with this? How do you get over this? Who are we when we use?
Now here I am thinking, "Was that me?" I cannot reconcile my present self with my former self, I've been battling this for while. I still have my mom say things like, "Remember the time you did..(fill in the blank with some shitty immoral thing)". Was I really not myself for those years? I still feel guilty for the people I hurt and hurting myself. I feel like Dr. Jecklyl and Mr. Hyde.
Does anyone deal with this? How do you get over this? Who are we when we use?
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It's been four years for me, and eventually the guilt did start to fade away. There was a lot of apologizing, but most imporantly, a lot of being the best person that I can be now, and giving the people I love so much good, that the bad will eventually be a vague memory of the past.