im addicted to meth and vicodin. i blamed it on my ex for a while but we\'re broken up and im still using. i am a functioning user. i go to work, i eat, i interact with family and friends...now. i used to not be a functioning user, but now i am...wierd...no not wierd...we broke up and now im on my own with responsibilities. i feel guilty for hiding it from my family, my parents mostly. they\'ve gone through so much to get me clean. i was clean for a couple months at a time...mainly because it wasnt there. if its here in front of me, i have not, so far, been able to refuse it, now i go out looking for it. i\'ve been using off and on for 11 years and im 24 years old. if i cant get meth, i have to take vicodin. what\'s wierd about it is that when i am not using, im happier, more stable, more responsible, more me...and i get depressed when im on it, and i know i will be depressed, but i do it anyway...anyone out there?? anyone feel me?? not going to rehab, didnt work.
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