I am new, and I just wanted to share a bit of my story and hopefully offer some hope.~I have been clean from meth for 12 years, sober from alcohol for 8 months. What I used to be like:My first drink was at 9,I used drugs and alcohol through out my life.Pretty sure I have tried every drug available to man at least once, but meth was the drug that sucked me in and spit me out.I loved the high more than I can explain.It made me feel alive and excited about life.I would stay awake until I was having hallucinations(which I often enjoyed), then drop LSD or smoke weed to heighten the experience.I really enjoyed feeling like I was in the 6th dimension or something.But it became complete hell, my life fell apart.I quit college and lost my job.My then boyfriend and I became drug runners and dealers mainly to pay for the habit.This went on until the federal government raided our house(luckily they found nothing)-But still we ended up with conspiracy charges which forced me into treatment.During this time I found out I was pregnant, and had Hep C from sharing needles.Looking back, I am grateful I was arrested.~What I am like now:To make a long story short, I made a decision along the way to choose to be clean.I am a work in progress(aren't we all?),and the desire to use meth is gone.I go to bed at night with peace,wake up with hope, and live my life with integrity.I am able to give freely of myself in anyway I can in life.This would not be possible if I was using.Most of my old using friends are either dead or in prison.Many took their own lives.I have survived, but only because I have worked very hard in recovery.I hope if you are struggling with addiction, you can believe that life can be better, it is not hopeless!If this crazy, rebellious chick can do it, anyone can!! Sorry this was so long.~Lesley
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