I\'m 31 years old and 2 years ago, I had to have a hysterectomy. I had cervical cancer, cysts on both ovaries, endometriosis, and severe pain all the time. My doctor told me that in his opinion, there was only a slight chance that I would be able to get pregnant again. I had several non-invasive procedures...the doctor would cut parts of my cervix off to get the cancer cells....also i had the surgery where they go in through the naval. Finally, in Oct. 2004, I had to have a partial hysterectomy. Everything was taken out except my right ovary. Then in Jan. 2005, I had to have the right ovary removed because I couldn\'t deal with the pain. I have one child from my first marriage; she is 11 years old. I am truly thankful to God for allowing me to have a child. I got married for the second (and last) time in Sept. 2005. I can honestly say that I am totally in love for the first time. He is my age, and has also been married before. He has no children, but he loves and treats our daughter like she is his biological child. We are currently in the process of him adopting my daughter. I never thought I would want children again, but when I married \"the love of my life\" I really wanted another baby. Every day I think about having a baby with my husband....I wish I could. I blame myself, thinking that I should\'ve just delt with the pain. I can\'t get over it. I cry about it all the time. And I know that I\'m just torturing myself, because there\'s certainly not anything that I can do about it. My husband says that it doesn\'t matter to him, but I still can\'t get it out of my head. I just want another baby. We thought about adopting, but no agency wants to give us a child because we\'re military. We move alot and my husband is getting ready to go to Iraq. I just basically want to know if anyone has a story similar to mine....thanks for taking the time to read my story.
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