Is there anyone else on this site who has run the whole gambit (perimenopause...did that for about 13 years....menopause...had a very severe experience that manifested in severe depression and anxiety and very screwed up hormones, I had a hysterectomy @ 33 but kept my ovaries) and is still feeling just never the same as before menopause struck? I've been at this for five years now (the menopause part)...supposedly I am thorugh menopause, but I am simply not myself at all. I am still on hormones (bio-identical) and we are slowly weaning down, but I am still doing depression, though not as severe, anxiety, and a zillion other health problems. I never feel like "me"...ever. It's scaring me. I don't want to live my entire life this way. I lost my teaching job when I got so ill, I became extremely chemically sensitive so have lost most of the places I used to be able to go to, I'm such a downer that most people don't care to hang out with me anymore (I had hoards of friends....who still pretend to be when I call them, but aren't issuing many invitations my way anymore), my husband has lost interest altogether and prefers to be out at his parent's farm mowing grass, etc., or golfing. Sorry for this pity party, it's the first time I've done this...I'm usually on the other end trying to encourage people. I lost my mother last October, who I was very close to, and I know that is another big factor. So.o.o...just wanted to know if there are others in this same boat, or do you actually someday become your old self again???
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