Doxy I don't know what to say. you are a big girl and can make your own decisions, but God forbid if the bleeding you had is from cancer, you really need to know this now. I am not trying to be harsh or to scare you, but if you are afraid of the biopsy pain, how would you handle the pain of dying from cancer?

Please have the procedure.

Peri,
Sweet friend I do understand what you are saying I really do...and it is not really that I do not want to have the procedure I know I need it and truth is I wish I were stronger than Iam but Iam not!

I just want to be sedated that is all!

When you take into consideration that people are given the choice for sedation when they have dental work done......... it seems almost torturous to expect all women to just suck up this proceure or ones similar and deal with it!

Not all women are the same and for some this is very painful.....my pap smear hurting me as much as it did indicates to me that very likely this is not going to be easy at all!

So.......what Iam going to do is call my dr and discuss this with her....Iam hoping that she cares enough and has enough compassion that she will do it with sedation!

Peri...I will let you know what happens!

and thank you for caring!

I know it may seem ridiculous to some people but this is very real to me, it is also very scary and just overall consuming my life right now! I cannot eat sleep or think straight that is sad but it is honest!

XO
Doxy

Doxy, I understand what you are saying comletely, however, I have to applaud Peri on her comment. If you have potent pain meds, take your maximum dosage, and ask your MD for a some type of Benzodiazapene(sp?), for instance xanax, valium, etc. They do that for me when I have MRI's because I am claustraphobic, even though I take xanax daily. I think this would give you "liquid courage"-I realize it's not liquid, but you get my drift, right? You don't want to die from cancer, love. Also, the internet is not always a positive place. How many people come on to say "I had this done and it was great"? Most people come on to complain. This may not be as bad as you think. Just get drugged up, and have someone drive you, your meds ought to be good for something, if they don't work for your everyday pain! I wish you luck, and please keep us posted. -T

I agree that you most certainly have the right to make your own decisions in all aspects of your health and body. No if ands or buts.

My only comment is that sedation poses additional health risks and this is perhaps why docs choose not to offer it in many cases. I hope you are able to do what feels right for you. Good luck

Everyone has a right to make their own medical decisions. It is the job of your practitioner to give you the risks and benefits of medications and procedures. As long as you accept these risks and benefits, then the decision is yours.
I question whether you really understand these risks/benefits. Sounds like you are making your decision from a place of fear. Fear is never a good place from which to make a decision.
Wish you the best!

I don't think it's ridiculous, I do understand the fear, but the worst fear is the unknown. yes some women have had some bad experiences but that doesn't mean you will be one of them. I think if you had it done you pould wonder afterwards why you were so afraid. These procedures are never as bad as we make them out to be in our own minds.

That being said, I think it is wrong of them not to at least offer you a mild tranquilizer so you won't be so afraid.

You mentioned part of what you were so scared of was about your son. Well please think, what will happen to him if you let your health deteriorate? He needs you to be in good health, and in order to do that you need to find out what is wrong so you can fix it.

I hope the doc is willing to work with you on this, because I want to see you alive and well and posting on this board for many years to come.

Perimeno is right. I am having cramping and my ovaries ache. I am having a Pelvic ultrasound on the 16th. They might even do a biopsy where they will go up and scrap to make sure I am ok. Believe me I will do it if needed. I rather be safe than sorry!

I just had it done a month ago and it was like a pinch that lasted a few minutes. It really isn't that bad. Take some pain medicine and a xanax and I promise you will be fine. Trust me when I say this procedure is far less painfull than cancer or chemo.
Hugs to you!
Jaci

To each and everyone of you who have written to me here on this post THANK YOU!
I appreciate and value each and everyone of you and the opinions you have!
and I also know that Iam not being the most reasonable person that Iam capable of being...and that it is my fear that is taking over the better part of me!

I really do not mean to be argumentive at all and hope you all know that...

I have always ( my entire life ) had more than a difficult time with medical procedures that are painful!

and because now I have a disease that causes even more pain it just ampifies that in me even more so ...

anyway I had the privledge to talk to an or nurse today at my work and she agreed that I indeed should be sedated since Iam severly uncomfortable...and she also told me that the hospital she works at they sedate men for vasectomies!!!!!!!!!

I know some of you probably disagree and think Iam making a mountain out of a mole hill.....

and by gosh I so wish I could just be a "big girl" and get it over with....but I cannot lie to myself!

I will find out today more info if my Dr will sedate me...it may make it better in the long run if Iam sedated anyway because if they need to do anything they can go ahead and do it!

I will let you all know what my dr tells me...and TY again for all of your love and support know it means the world to me!

:)

Doxy XO

Doxy, so glad to hear that you talked to someone that gave you some hope! I understand not wanting to do something that causes MORE pain, I'm totally with you on that one, however suffering worse in the long term is not my idea of a good time. Wishing you all the best, and that your MD agrees to "knock you out". -T

Hey Doxy. What a dilemma you have. I havent read all the posts thoroughly but I am picking its a biopsy of the cervix ?? I had one unsedated and it was painful. Thats the reality I am afraid. If you ask for sedation then they should give it to you. I had a horrendous experience last week when I had to do a bowel preparation for a ct scan of my bowel. The two day preparation put me in Hospital with dehydration and I was very sick. This is the second time it has happened despite keeping my body very well hydrated. The stuff I had to drink made me vomit and then I had diarrhea. I told my Doctor this could happen again and he didnt bat an eyelid. I also have a rare health condition and require regular blood tests and a two day treatment of intravenous antibodies every 4 months. Since starting the menopause, my life has become a daily struggle and now I find my faith in the medical profession is failing drastically. Doctors make me angry with their heinous procedures and chemical drugs. Why certain drugs and procedures havent been perfected over so many generations is beyond me. A simple painkiller such as codeine which is so well known to cause constipation in people. Yet they still continue to dish it out. To hell with all that crap. I have made a decision not to have any more so called procedures or chemical drugs. Then, should anyone be unlucky enough to get diagnosed with cancer, they give you chemotherapy which is so toxic it is more likely to kill you the the cancer itself. Its a known fact that untreated cancer patients live 4 times longer than treated ones. I can understand you and I fully support whatever decision you make. Its your body afterall and the medics need to learn to listen to the patient more. Good luck Doxy. Take care girl.

Kaylish Iam so so so sorry that you have gone through the things you have and oh how I can relate to feeling like you are losing faith in the medical community.....believe me I have gone through so many Dr's in the last 10 years because I have gotten where I won't put up with any crap from any of them...if they make me mad I leave and find another dr!

I used to be one of those kind of persons that thought that if a Dr said or did something I had to respect it....well not anymore!

I give back whatever is given to me....after all Iam paying them and if they do not have time to care about me then I do not care about them nor do I want them treating me!

They get insulted when we tell them what is wrong with us but if we don't they have not got a clue half the times...

It makes me want to throw up when I read your story how your dr treated you I could go on here for hours telling you horror stories that are comparable to your ..but the bottom line is that is really is unacceptable!

I just know Iam so greatful for the internet....as I have been able to keep on top of everything through support groups and people that do care...

plus another thing just so you know....there are dr rating sites that you can go to....just google dr rating sites and they will pop up...
you can and SHOULD make reports on each and every dr that is good or bad with you!

If we as patients stick together it will make a difference.....as for me....when I go to the dr rating sites and find anything negative on a dr I will NOT go to him or her!

I just recently had a situation where I went against my good judgement with a dr who had one bad rating ( he no good ones and just the one bad one) anyhow I thought well maybe the person was just mad at the dr I will give him the benefit of the doubt...

I should have listened to my gut and the bad report because it was ONE OF THE WORST Dr appt I have ever been to in my life!

Iam sorry for going on and on...really I just wanted to say thank you for your support and to let you know that you are not alone....if you ever need me Iam here for you!

Doxy