i feel like that too
i only started in january of this year tho
you want it cos its fun
but then when you do it, it aint that gd!

I know exactly how you feel. It took 10 years of using like that until I started buying it and using alone, which lasted another 10 years and got me into a lot of debt paying for my habit and the lifestyle that accompanied it. I havent smoked pot in 3 years and still paying off debt. I do it with help of 12 steps including Marijuana Anonymous.

I meant to say the first 10 years I used I didn't really like how I felt but I couldn't turn it down. It took 10 years of that before I started buying it myself, and I got used to how it felt. It's very addictive for me! Yesterday I walked by some boys in a park with a pipe, and thanks to the support of others in recovery for addiction I have a sense of accountability and I don't need to go there. I also have a spiritual connection that keeps me aware that pot is not a link for me to get closer to my higher power anymore.

latley when i smoke i've been having feeling of guilt. about alot of things. then I say i'm done never again. yet, i'm still smoking. i guess that's why its called an addiction.

Yes there is a psychological addiction involved here we should all be able to agree on. About 10 years ago, I found myself on my hands and knees looking for crumbs of pot that had fallen onto the cabinet floor. I suddenly realized how ridiculous a spectacle it was, and stopped myself, stood up, and realized I had a problem.

capncrunchbud..i do that ALOT..im ashamed to say..and i never actually considered it a big deal..i thought it was pretty normal?!..but thinking about it now..

Hahahaha for sure for sure- I was coming in here expecting to say "BLASHPHAMY!!"

That's part of the reason why I quit. I started by cutting way down and only smoking when offered while I was playing music. I found that once I was stoned, I didn't want to be stoned anymore. I had to start telling myself to turn it down because I wouldn't want to be high once I was anyway.
It does feel good to be free from that incesant mind game that you play with yourself about finding some way to get high. You don't need it and once you believe you don't want it, you're well on your way.

i don't even feel high anymore, the weed just makes me feel better, when i started smoking i felt really ghostly and spooked, now i just feel high, i only smoke it still caus i get money i have nothing to do with after i get all my grocerys for the week

I lost everything to weed. All i could think about was when i'd get more, i waited around all night for my dodgy dealers to hook me up. I missed work so much i eventually got fired. My partner left me. At the time i didn't care. I actually had no plans to quit it just happened one day.

This is the hit buddy you have become psychologically dependant on the stuff. I had smoked for 114 years and I am 27 believe me buddy sop now because it will only get worse. the other funny thing about is the longer you smoke getting off of the stuff is a withdrawling system. good luck