I used to be the first person to judge someone like me. I don't like much about myself anymore, but for some reason, I seem unable to stop those things that I'm doing to hurt myself and my family. The judgement cast on me by other people have kept me from being honest and getting help for so long, but I am relieved to find anonymity here and share my problems, because my family really needs help before my husband and I destroy them. I know the root of my problems is in weed, as it is for my husband. We are addicted. Anyone who says you can't be addicted to weed, and many have told me that, has never been in my shoes. I see the destruction it has caused, how I've made my life an unhappy place to live because of it, how I've hurt my kids, and still I can't find the will to quit. What is wrong with me? What kind of person can't quit drugs for their kids, or their unborn child? The scary thing is, I'm afraid that even if I lost everything; my children, my husband, my family, my home, my pets, and my health, that I would eventually adapt to and accept my life, and continue to smoke weed. I must be stupid. I feel like if I can't be stronger and get better, I don't deserve those things anyway. I should rot.
Posts You May Be Interested In
I miss traveling with my husband. Has anyone found a specific site regarding cruising for widow/widowers or any sightseeing trips. Not interested in being with couples and kids,,,I realize a cruise ship will have a portion size of families and couples, but perhaps they also put together a part of the cruise ship for groups of widows/widowers????
A friend sent this to me..As far as I can see, grief will never truly end.It may become softer overtime, more gentleand some days will feel sharp.But grief will last as long as Love does - ForeverIt's simply the way the absence of your loved onemanifests in your heart. A deep longing accompaniedby the deepest Love some days. The heavy fog mayreturn and the next day, it may recede.Once again, it's...