I was implanted with pacemaker 9mths ago. I know I should quit, my husband bitches constantly. My biggest problem is everyone I hang out with smokes it. I am a very social person and for me to sit at home and avoid everyone is depressing and I just wanna smoke pot. My coping skill has been POT, helped me through seual abuse and rape at 11/12, my mom dieing on my 13 b-day, 1st husband beat the fuck out of me for 5yrs, just getting through life. It is like one of my best friends, always there, never complaining, non-judgemental. POT has been with me longer than my parents were. YES, I know the bad shit about it, not that it deters me from smoking it. I have so much to write, yet it seems pointless.
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