After my senior year of highschool I started dating a guy I met where I worked. I didnt know it at first but he smoked...alot. It didnt bother me that much, because I had known people in highschool that smoked. After about a month of dating, he asked me if I wanted to smoke. I had never smoked before and I was curious so I smoked. After the summer ended and I went away to school I continued seeing my boyfriend and smoking, at first I only smoked about once a week, but slowly I smoked more and more until eventually it was all I thought about. It got to a point where I didnt go to class anymore, I spent alot of time at my boyfriends apartment and smoked everyday allday. It drastically effected everything about my life, my friends didnt want anything to do with me because of the drugs, my family life deteriorated, my boyfriend was going nowhere in life, and I was doing poorly at school. I was angry at myself for letting things get so bad. I broke up with my boyfriend and I decided it was time for a change. I smoked for a year and a half, a wasted year and a half. I have been clean now for 2 months and I am grateful that I got clean before I got kicked out of school. I didnt want to end up like my boyfriend, living in a shitty apartment and living between paychecks. I want more for myself then that. Being sober is hard, especially when I get stressed out, but I know that being clean is the best thing for me.
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