I have been smoking pot since high school. I just recently graduated from college. I am one of those people you would never expect to be a user. It was like my little secret. I didn't come off as your stereotypical pot-head. I always had good grades, I don't drink or smoke cigs, my life appears to be perfectly on track. But its not. The realization hit me when I recently applied for a good job, a job that was offered to me right there in the interview. That is, after I passed a routine urine test. I failed. I felt so humiliated, so... exposed. Since then I have been afraid to apply for another job until I can get clean. I don't want to use special drinks or pills to try and pass (they don't always work, which I found out the hard way). The problem is, I am having so much trouble quitting. Part of the problem is that everyone around me smokes. My boyfriend, my brothers, even my dad. I grew up around this lifestyle. And I don't condem it. I honestly don't see pot as the "enemy". I don't even want to quit, I just feel that I have to acknowledge the fact that society does not accept it and this can cause problems and obstacles for me. Obviously. It's so hard because the fact is I really enjoy smoking pot. Everyday that I smoke I feel like I have let myself down again. I can't let this come between me and a good job, I've worked too hard for that. Does anyone have any tips for quitting?
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