im not sure what to do.. i came back down to north carolina, to receive treatment.. and try to make things work with my boyfriend. He promised me before i came here that he would provide for me and take care of me. That i wouldnt need to get a job at first, and just focus on getting better and getting treatment. But he cant even take care of himself.. he gets these jobs where its always promises or big money and they never pan out. Lately hes been goin door to door selling meat, and knowing that we have to pay rent today.. he decided to go and work on his insurance selling yesterday, and came back with no money and pretty much didnt even work. And here i am .. supposed to not be stressing, and thats all im doing. He doesnt seem to get it, even though he says he does. Im trying to get into treatment, but need to get some paperwork cleared and other things before, so i need to drive to get things, but he leaves me with no gas and no money. Im so frustrated at him and myself. I shouldnt of believed that this time he was actually serious, and really wanted to provide. And i have no where to go, ive already burned all my bridges with my family. im such a fuck up
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