I will love you, til death do us apart,"

Cannabis.
My biggest fear, which holds me on,
This life's for real, this ain't no con.
Two twenty pound notes get us through a day,
Shit man, I've forgot what to say!

As i sit all alone in my slumber,
Far too distraught to even think of the future,
I slouch into my seat, head in hands. ASHAMED AGAIN.
A stoner to the bone, A stoner in the mind.

Four years now it's held me back,
All i can say now is FACK FACK FACK.
I've lost good mates with these lies.
I laugh and shout " FUCK YOU, WHO ATE ALL THE PIES!"

I can't explain, and you would not understand,
Four years ago i had it in my head, it was all planned.
Live a life of love, happiness, laughter.
What the fuck happened, where's my happily ever after?

Skin up, spark up and take another couple of tokes.
Pass it to a newbie, and laugh as he chokes.
Just another day, Just another joint.
I've told an intro, but i want to get straight to the point.

Three weeks ago now, Or was it three months,
I forget with two 8ths a day. My past, My futures.
Memories, of the olden days. Years ago now.
Always reminded, Always haunted.

Drugs used to be something i done for a laugh,
I've gotta say this on every druggys behalf,
Smack, coke, pills, Cannabis, none of it's cool.
You all have your jobs, life and family. While im standing here, looking like a fool.
I know i will never quit these drugs.
So for the rest of my life, im branded a thug.

Tell me this is happiness...



I wrote this about a year ago, I think it's an insight as to how addited i was, May be hope, that when thing's get to bad, If you need to you can quit.