So it's been a long time since I've visited this site for reasons that I'm sure aren't hard to guess. My girlfriend and I broke up and she was the one that gave me the push to finally quit smokin that fuckin reefer. So after losing her I turned to my number one coping tool to fight the pain away. As usual I was back into my old routine in no time. Luckily I didn't get in any trouble this time around, but it's time to quit again. And this time I really need to take it seriously for two good reasons. Today I"m moving to San Francisco to go back to college and I'm really nervous that I"m gonna fuck it up (again), gotta get my head right. We're about to leave so I can't write too much more. The other reason is I've recently come into contact with one of my biological sisters that I've been wanting to have in my life since I knew I was adopted. She learned from hearing of my stupid mistakes and has managed to stay completely drug free and she doesn't like knowing that I still do them. I want her in my life more than anything and I think in order to build the relationship I want i need to be clean. I have two incredibly good reasons to quit smoking pot, so why am I worried that I can't do it. Oh yeah, it's a fuckin addiction. I'm gonna need a lot of support on this and I really hope somebody that reads this might give a shit and possibly give me some words of encouragement.
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