I'm not even sure why I created an account here. It seems most of the people that post are more interested in continuing to smoke. It really sucks that people post comments that basically try to convince people not to quit. I'm not saying that quitting is for everybody, I just want to try and offer some insight based on my own experience. I've been through four types of treatment, and I'm still unsure which (if any) were necessary. One due to my doctor parents, the rest were the legal results of my own stupid shit. But I know it helped me understand why I smoke pot and why it's so hard to quit. I basically started smoking out of curiosity and to make new friends. Eventually it became the only thing I knew, almost the only way I identified with people. Eventually it's something you just do because it's a habit. Sure it's still nice to smoke a bowl with your buddies, but I didn't get very high and the thrill of the whole thing was long gone. I was just in a rut of doing it because it was the only way I knew how to live. There are times when I had "moments of clarity" that were soon replaced by the urge to smoke another bowl. It's almost like having a split personality. One that tells you it's fine to keep smoking, you'll probably make it through life (with a few pitfalls). But another side of you knows you wish you were clearer minded and had that extra money in your posket. The times when you want so badly to be rid of the problem are quickly replaced by falling back into old habits. This is because (as most of you have said) it's easier to just do what you know. Smoking pot (for me) became a way of dealing with everything life had to offer. If I was happy I'd celebrate with a bong load. If things were going bad, I would medicate with a joint to try and forget my problems. Basically I didn't want to live life on it's terms, I wanted to deal with it my own way which I eventually saw was only holding me back. It's definitely scary to think about going through life without that crutch. I haven't been completely clean since high school and working on I'm getting that way again. All I know for sure is that it is possible to be happy and have fun without being high all the time and I'd like to be able to do that again. "
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